Down 2 more lbs - time to up my calories ;)

According to this week's weigh in, I'm down 2.2 more lbs which puts me at 207. This is good news, of course and it kind of makes me think I should keep doing what I've been doing. Yet, I'm starting to worry that I'm going to put my body into starvation mode and stop losing within the next few weeks. I went on the daily plate and it said should eat 1585 calories per day in order to lose 2 lbs. per week. This kind of doesn't make sense to me since my understanding was that you need to subtract 500 calories (daily) for every pound you want to lose in a week - that formula would put me at under 1200 calories, but I'm going to give the higher amount a shot. I suppose the worst that can happen is that I'll gain a couple of pounds in the next week (actually I don't think that's possible at 1600 - just that I won't lose as much), and then I'll have to readjust. We'll see how it goes :).

I’m a neurotic mess . . .

For every good thing, or every “accomplishment” I seem to anticipate something negative. I started using a new face wash, and it’s wonderful! My face has cleared to the point that I no longer feel the need to wear foundation. Yet, I’ve begun to wonder what I’m going to do when (not if, but when) it stops working. It’s only been about 3 weeks since I started using it, and I’m already concerning myself with needing to find a new product :-/. This strange way of thinking that I have has been known to cause me problems with weight loss in the past, and it’s starting to cause me some problems this time around. I’m consistently losing weight so far, and I feel great about it! I’m actually starting to believe that this time will be different, and I will meet my goal at some point. Yet, I don’t see that as completely positive :(. Instead of being excited by the idea of being thin, I’m worried that if I do get there I’ll end up with a “lollipop head” and a flat chest! Oy, I’m such a pessimist! I really need to learn to retrain my brain and stop looking for the negatives, or potential negatives in every situation. The problem for me where weight is concerned is that being thin is unknown territory. I don’t do well with unfamiliar situations. I like to know what I’m getting myself into, so that I can prepare myself. I’ve never been thin, so I don’t know what I will look like. I honestly feel like I have no way of knowing if my concerns are completely off the wall (as logically I hope/imagine they are), or if they are actually valid and something I should be worrying about :-/! Wow, this sounds incredibly vain :(. Sometimes I wonder if it would just be easier to keep the “ugly” I know, than to give it up for an unfamiliar which could wind up being equally as ugly, just in a different way :-/

The evil talking scale was kind today :)

Yes, that evil talking scale complete with moving pictures, better known as the wii fit board, wasn't so evil today. I hate getting on that thing every week for fear that I haven't lost a single pound, or worst yet - that I've gained. Yet some how I feel better about a happy high-pitched voice telling me that I'm fat in medical terms than I do about the voice inside my head telling me that I'm a fat-ass as I look down at that bright red number which gets burned into my brain. So, I've found the fit board to be a better alternative to a scale for me. Anywho, good news for me -I'm down 4 lbs this week, which puts me at 209.2. Half way to my first goal! I really need to start adding exercise ~ hmm, perhaps it would be a good idea to start using the fit board for more than just my weekly weigh in!